Ambang Merdeka IPR 2008

Happy National Day! Today is Malaysia's 51th birthday, we need to sing 'Happy Birthday' to her, Happy Birthday to you...

Because of this, IPR had organized Ambang Merdeka. We had our parade in the afternoon and performance at night. We had also barbeque, our three Chinese group had combined to have barbeque, so as other group. I couldn't take pictures at night with my Nokia 6300, wait until I have enough money to buy a digital camera, muahahaha...

So, I could only take some shots of the performance in the hall, I couldn't take the photos of my group's performance, as I was also involved in the performance. Sorry for the low quality of the picture.

View inside the hall during Ambang Merdeka, quite beautiful, isn't it? Thanks to our creative lecturer, Mr. Michael Wong.

The only group with their uniform, supporting staffs.

Dance by our friends, Chinese group. All girls were had their make-up, shocked to see their different faces.

Drama of seniors from Pengajian Sosial. Funny but it broughts up the meaning of "UNITED".

Our lovely lecturers sang! Conducted by Mdm. Ling, my lovely Choir Club's lecturer.

My group performance is choir. We were the only singing group who didn't bring any notes when we sang. Although we didn't win any prizes, but I satisfied with our performance, we had already did our best. As long as our performance didn't look bad, that is enough, we didn't hope to win any prize, we just did what we should do. Next Tuesday, we will having Aerobic competition. We had already practice for three days, same, we will do our best, we don't hope to win, as long as we don't look bad, at least for that, I won't feel embarassed.

Wah...got cake! But it is not for Malaysia's birthday, it is for Soo Chin, my friend's 18th birthday. I know, her group will also celebrate her birthday right after the countdown. But because of a friend's suggestion, I bought this chocolate cake. Then that friend and I gave her this as a present. Happy Birthday, Soo Chin!

对不起，我必须这么做

昨夜，我遇到了恐怖的事情。。。

在那个世界，我竟然遭遇了其中最恐怖的事情，我见识它的可怕性，我好想从那个世界逃离到没人的地方去！

我和一位朋友发生某些事情，结果他的举动把我吓着了，害我整晚无法入眠，他所作的事情真的把我吓坏了！我在这里不方便详细透露，请大家见谅。总之，在三更半夜遇到这种事，我简直是吓到发抖，说不出话来，只是拼命在哭。我急着打电话给男友，向他诉苦，把我的惧怕全都说出来。感谢主，有他的存在，有他的安慰，即使他不在我的身边，至少我的心情比较平静，至少到最后我还能安然入睡。。。

到目前为止，我跟那位朋友没再联络了，即使他一直找我，向我道歉，我不想再理会他了，因为他给我的伤害太严重了。我不能再收到关于他的任何消息，即使我不想失去这位朋友，要是情况不允许，我没办法了，只好残忍点，亲手将这条友谊之绳剪断。伤心，痛苦，我们俩都会感觉到，大家都公平，谁也没有比谁难过。

我真的是受宠若惊，到今天我未完全脱离那惧怕的情绪。我在MSN的personal message上留言，透露了我当时的心情。 有几位朋友慰问我，我将故事告诉他们，他们都很关心我，也说了一些安慰的话，我的情绪渐渐平复，也因此感到窝心。

这个世界，真的很恐怖，可是很感谢那些朋友，他们的存在让我觉得，其实这个世界还是有他美丽的地方，真的很感谢你们。。。

至于那位朋友，我很对不起他，我知道，我不理会他，会伤到他的心，我也很想去关心他，可是他给我的伤害实在是太严重了，使我对他产生惧怕的感觉，我必须逃避他！只好让时间冲淡一切，把我对他的恐惧感也给冲淡，希望或许几个月，或者几个年后的我们仍然是朋友。。。

我的心，好痛！可是，那个恐惧感更强大！ 对不起，这段期间，我真的不想再听到你的任何消息，我不想再收到你的简讯，我不想再接到你的电话！请你让我这么做，请你放开我！

与人相处之道- - - 仍然学习当中

我太晚上网了。。。

昨早，我到民丹莪（Bintangor) 去和我的组员会面， 以完成我们的课业。没办法啊，虽说开斋节后呈交，可是有空档的实践，就见面一下，课业越早完成越好。

重点不在这里，重点在于当我们讨论完毕后，我们去享用民丹莪出名的Rojak， 大家就边吃边聊起天来。。。

聊的包括学院里发生的事情，可是聊着聊着，聊到关于与人相处之道。。。我们现在面临的就是人与人之间相处所发生的问题，包括对某个人看不顺眼，引起不合，分派等等，突然之间，觉得人际关系真的好难搞，人与人相处的世界是多么阴暗，多么奸诈，多么恐怖，更没想到，尚未二十岁的我，这么快就要面临这样的问题了。。。还记得我之前在这里提过的英文文章吗？就在前几篇。

前天，我妈突然和我家两姐妹（包括我）分享这个道理，不过重点比较在于异性，哈哈！她竟然跟我们分析每个异性，其实也等于世上的每种人...有机会我会一一分享。。。

原来人与人之间的关系，都充满危机，踏入那样的世界，一时之间真的觉得很恐怖，可是往往有些人会让这个世界更加甜美，至少我不会对这个世界感到灰心，只希望自己不是破害那个世界的其中之一， 我要成为点缀美丽的其中一分子。。。

Final Match of Badminton in Olympic 2008

During the time I busy to do my assignment, I spent time to sit in front of TV, watching the final match of badminton in Olympic 2008, between Lee Chong Wei from Malaysia and Lin Dan from China. I guess Malaysian and the citizen of China were also waiting to watch this match.

Quite disappointed actually, this was not a very good match. I did not feel very sad if Chong Wei lost, but with that kind of marks...I really felt disappointed! Is it the match between badminton No.1 player and No.2 player? I think the match between Chong Wei and Lee Hyunil in semi-final was even better...

21-12, 21-8

Lin Dan won...but Chong Wei lost with those kind of marks. I understand, he was nervous, always get the same mistakes...almost whole Malaysian watch the match, how suppose he would not feel nervous and tension? But I still proud of him, at least he got the silver medal for our country, Malaysia 1st medal in Olympic 2008.

Bravo Lee Chong Wei, you did a good job!

Interaction Among People

Last Monday, an incident has happened. Although it is not a serious case, but it has already led to the problem on interaction with people. I realize this will happen some day, but I surprised that it happen so fast...

Our monitor was stressed because no body wanted to listen to him. He felt very angry and thus he lost his temper in front of many seniors. That time I was not at there because I already received the instruction given by our monitor to stay in the class. There were some people who did not receive the instruction clearly and that causes the monitor to scold them. This action has let a lot of people shocked. What I know was, straight away he told me about this just after he arrived to the class. I felt shocked with his reaction and became speechless.

After the class, a few of friends and I stayed in the class to calm the monitor down, as he was still very angry and very stressed. Other people saw this and this lead to the misunderstanding. My heart even had been hurt by other people from the back, maybe because of this. Indeed, I felt sad and pain, but...I have to ignore them.

Sorry for those who know about this case, I just want to express myself here, I did not mean to hurt anyone. Suppose I should keep it as a secret...

I just want to say that, this will always happen in our society, we could not escape from it, what can we do is to minimize the frequent of this kind of this stuff to happen. We should have our mind open, do not be too sensitive, or else you will get hurt easily. But somehow you need to be sensitive, to look over other people, how are their attitude and personalities and else. This is the way to protect yourself, so that you will be aware when you talk to them. One of my friends had told me about this. Just ignore them if they act like this to you, in case the thing has becomes serious, you can tell them that you do not like it. Be brave to protect yourself.

Another lessons on social problem, how should you interact with other people...

Will Be A Busy Holiday

Yes, I have my first holiday after start my training life in IPR. Seems like this will not be a holiday, it just like study at home, have to do a lot of homework, essays, assignments and presentations. I even need to go to my group members' house to do the stuff. How busy am I...

Of course I will be in-charge of presentation, because I am better in Microsoft Power Point in my group although I am be in different group with different homework. I like to deal with Microsoft Power Point, but somehow it needs much time. Quite lazy to do this. I already wasted a few days because of this L-A-Z-Y word, I didn't feel want to do the homework! I really want to respect one of my friends, she really is a hardworking girl, I need to learn from her, try to finish the work within a day, so that she doesn't need to do last-minute job. I "tabik" to her!

I will continue my story after this few days, I am tired now, just want to share some pictures of Minggu Pengurusan Pelajar Baharu...

My yellow name tag during the orientation week, I still use it now because I still do not have my matric card.

The girls of intake Julai 2008. That time there was a girl who was absent because she still not recovered from her injury. Now three more girls came to our big family after the appeal, but there is one girl who is going to leave us because she quits.


Again, my class...

拉让师范学院的华文学会─迎新会

很明显的，2008年7月28日，下午2.30pm-4.25pm，拉让师范学院的华文学会举办了迎新会…地点就在Dewan Kenanga，也就是我们的panggung syarahan.

当天举办了许多活动，包括认识学长们和华裔讲师们，也趁这个机会去了解华文学会所举办的活动。 当然少不了新生的表演啦！

华文辅导组，也就是我的组，所呈现的表演是朗诵诗歌。组里的21位学员朗诵一小段诗歌。我未曾朗诵诗歌，当天还差点忘词…

好刺激噢！到底每个人在看什么？原来是传球游戏…当天的游戏就是传球游戏，以前在学校的时候时常都在玩这个游戏。虽然老套，可是却很刺激，恨好玩，时不时礼堂传来女生的尖叫声，害怕自己拿到那个球，成为惩罚的“受害者”。我当然害怕啦，我才不要在众人面前出丑！

噢…谁是那位幸运的受害者呢？那个受了惩罚的“诅咒”的排球，人人都怕了你啊！如果没拿到你，大家都会松了一口气，拍手兴奋呢！我并没有幸灾乐祸呢，只是真的太兴奋了！

嗨，我看到你了！学长握着相机到处拍，被我发现了，结果就出现了如此的相片…当时大家在唱钟盛忠的 《朋友出去走走》。歌词含义非常有意思， 曲子蛮好听，可惜我并不熟悉这首歌，我还不知道它的旋律。

钟盛忠-朋友出去走走

满天的晚霞烧得成脸红
它好象急着要我去把握
由于它就在我的心中
怎能随便找个人诉说
至于头发谁留得比较长
是不是就能充当生命的重量
我打开每一扇窗
让它可以捎来你的回答
朋友请你不要笑我
忧伤的事太多
我想出去走走
那许多有情人
是不是一种传说
为何我还在这里守住寂寞
朋友请你不要笑我
感动的事太多
我想出去走走
找一个星期天
我就要骑着单车
带我的吉他你一起遨游

青春的血液本来就很浓
想要把万事万物都看透
荣誉它住在我的心中
不能遇上挫折就惶恐
至于未来它究竟有多长
梦想的旗帜究竟飘扬在何方
忘不掉旧日生活无心犯下的错
我又怎能笑他不会地长痛
朋友请你不要笑我
忧伤的事太多
我想出去走走
那许多有情人
是不是一种传说
为何我还在这里守住寂寞
朋友请你不要笑我
感动的事太多
我想出去走走
找一个星期天
我就要骑着单车
带我的吉他你一起遨游
朋友请你不要笑我
忧伤的事太多
我想出去走走
那许多有情人
是不是一种传说
为何我还在这里守住寂寞
朋友请你不要笑我
感动的事太多
我想出去走走
找一个星期天
我就要骑着单车
带我的吉他你一起遨游
带我的吉他你一起遨游

有意思吧？

最后，大家来个大合照！这就是我们的华文辅导组，听说下个星期将会添加几位学员，是上诉成功的朋友们，很期待看到他们噢！

Enjoy, Fun But Busy, Tired

My 2nd week in IPR...

Our homework gets more and more, especially English. I have English as minor subject, and I need to take the English test in the final exam every semester. Miss Ong, our English lecturer had taken a lot of period, maybe she wants to fulfill the credit hours faster, as she will be busy after this. We need to write journal everyday, find a lot of notes in the library, and yes, I am a bit quite bored with English now...

A lot of presentations and notes need to prepare, such as now, I still finding Chinese poems and short stories through Internet, for the titles as the lecturer asked, such as 《长恨歌》、 《游子吟》 and the stories written by 鲁迅. Sleepy, but still going on, I am online at home now, the wireless in IPG does not very good, so I hope I can find all those information at home today. I even need to do the presentation for GERKO (Gerak Kerja Kokurikulum) too! I was selected to join Music/Choir Club, I really happy with that. I can be with those people who good in singing and playing music instruments, and also with those who are interested. For the first time I had that good feeling, sounds like I felt fortunate. Oh...Thanks God!

I try to adapt the new environment there, but seems like I still can't use with food there. I had to rush to the toilet for several times until I absent! So sad that I couldn't have 100% attendance, now I try to be present in the class unless I really sick until I can't even wake up from the bed. And then for the GERKO, I try to get 100% attendance, although I don't know how to play volleyball and I need to have a test on it. I need to learn new sport...About the food, I got once that almost a day I just ate fast food--Mi Sedap, and I afraid to take it for this moment. Sigh...

But, I can communicate well with my classmates, I start to enjoy the friendship with them...

Want to sleep already...really tired...

奇妙的道路- - 是上帝所预备的

2005年，我依然是中五生，为大马文凭考试而拼了很辛苦，甚至承受了许多压力，只因为我选错时间开始踏上恋爱之路，而遭到父母和校方的控制…但是神给我很大的礼物，一个意想不到的成绩，是我在学校从来没获得的成绩…

7A1，1A2，1B3， 2B4

之前我只获得最多5A而已，而且还有很多C。自从那里开始，我看到神在我身上所行的奇迹，也立志成为他的女儿…

可是，上帝同时也给我许多考炼。我所申请的大学预科班和师范，没有一样被录取，只好硬着头皮升学到中六。当时的我曾经为此事而埋怨上帝，又加上当时的我刚搬迁到泗里街，陌生的家乡，又是新学校，新环境，很多负面的情绪一下子涌来。常常，我躲在被窝里偷偷哭泣，也打电话向男友诉苦。

感谢神，在我在教堂参与青年主日崇拜后，他赐我勇气，向当时的青团副主席“自我推荐”。从此，我成为新怀仁堂青年团契的一份子，也让我在泗里街有了更多的朋友，让我踏进事奉的道路。从海外生的分享，让我领悟到，原来在外求学必须要学习独立，也要懂得交朋友，还有很多很多宝贵的功课。就是这里，我感谢神安排我在中六求学，好让我的思想更加成熟，更加独立。

经过一年半的刻苦耐劳，我的大马高级文凭考试终於度过了！很幸福，因为有这么多弟兄姐妹为我祷告，有些还一起上战场打个轰轰烈烈的一场战，真的觉得，我是个基督徒，好幸福噢！虽然这期间，我曾因压力和担心跟不上进度而半夜在书房大声喊叫，害父母从楼上的房间跑下来，当时的我太恐怖了！可是感谢神的带领，我在三月的时候再次收到惊喜。我的成绩能让我进大学…

1A，1B-，1C+， 1C， CGPA=2．75

真是令我非常惊讶！我在学校从来没获得A，CGPA最高也只有2．00…

却在这个时候，我参与国民服务。现在回想起来，我才发现，一切都是上帝的安排。我中五后所申请的，没有一样中，反而是国民服务，我很幸运的被抽中了。他的目的是要我参与国民服务，而这项活动改变了我许多。我比以前更容易与别人打交道，我懂得在外面生活，起码有个基本的独立生活。我发现，许多朋友爱向我诉苦，由我成为他们的忠实听众，导致我想加入辅导这一行。也因此，我懂得吃辣的马来餐…最重要，我没有很多种族歧视的成分了，但是难免还是有啦。还有一个，在国民服务期间，我读到了一本自创的书，认识了读者，也呼唤了埋在心里已久的声音─我曾经爱文字！我对文字的热情在此被燃烧，相信会永远燃烧着，因为…我被师范录取了，主修辅导华文组，我会一直很方块字打交道的，包括现代文（小说，诗，散文）。

就因为这宝贵的经验，使我顺利度过迎新周。从以前到现在，他总是巧妙地领导我走每一步，虽然有时会越轨，但是他总是及时把我带回走正确的道路。感谢神，他的慈爱和保守，好让有今天的我，在拉让师范受训，将来走上教育的道路，同时也事奉主…

朋友们，当你遇到未来的无知时，你可以祷告，放两百个心将你的前途交给主，他必定引导你。
即使有多少的困难，这些都是上帝所赐给你的考炼，为的就是磨炼你成为他所喜悦的人。
上帝对每个人的蓝图都不一样，所以每个人的道路都是独特的。
相信主，他为你拟定的蓝图是最好的…

New Move, New Step Towards My Dream

Just finished my orientation week. Thanks God, I could went through everything successfully. I didn't fall sick, just not enough sleep; my muscles pain, but I already used to it. I had been gone through all this exercise days during I was in National Service.

So, there will be a new move, new step towards my dream to become a teacher. Thanks God, because He listened to my prayer. I will follow the way He had gave me, if He thinks the way to become a teacher is the BEST way for me, I will follow him. No matter I didn't feel much confident on myself, no matter how difficult the study life I need to go through after this, I leave up everything upon to God. I realize, how much the stress and pressure I need to tackle after this, the assignments, the presentations, the examinations, the outdoor activities, the life...I can't fail in my exam, I can't absent easily, I can't break the rules and laws inside and outside the campus. If not, I need to face a lot of punishment. Paying fine, kick out from the campus will be the most serious punishment, and then my 'penjamin' needs to pay RM 130,000 back. What a big amount of money! How should I didn't feel tension about this? My aunt becomes my 'penjamin'...oh gosh!

Somehow,sometimes, I feel I am not suitable to become a teacher, because, I don't have a good leadership! And, I give up easily on this...But, this is my dream, my ambition, to be in the education field. It just I had the 'honeymoon' for more than half year, then I can't use to back to study life again. Hope I can adapt soon.

About the orientation...Still OK to me, knowing new friends, and then just every night senior came to 'disturb' us, until we only had maximum THREE hours to sleep.The food always spicy, and less green vegetables, but I still can used with the food, I still can take spicy food, maybe because I always took spicy food in the camp last few months.

Soon, I will have the class next week, maybe outdoor activities also starts next week. I take volleyball! Actually got three choices - volleyball, ping pong and badminton. But it is a package, if I take volleyball in 1st SEM, I will be given ping pong in 2nd SEM and badminton in 3rd SEM. Because other two package got hockey and futsal, I rather to choose volleyball.

Yeah, I try to enjoy myself in IPR(Institut Pengajian Rajang). But don't forget to study! The only thing I hope for now is, I don't want to fall asleep in the class just like last time in Form 6!